A month ago a man who I thought that can take everything that is my pillar, my dad, had a heart attack, and in one single second everything that I have known in my life has changed. Before that I thought that he is untouchable that everything that he gets in term of health conditions will go by and he will be OK. And I think I have seen this untouchable man as he wanted that we see this man in him as he wanted to believe he is himself.
In one second his life changed and ours too. He will be OK and his recovery is going great. However our perception of untouchable man has changed. He has a hard time to accept new reality as he does not stand to be vulnerable and for us it is hard as we know that anything can happen not just to him to everybody. And he always put himself to much pressure for everything, he always wanted to take the burden of everybody on himself. I guess this time his body said no I have enough, you need to take care of yourself.
This has happened only ten days prior my brother’s wedding. So we had a mixture of fear, love, excitement and every emotion that you can think of on our hands. And I think we managed to pull the best out of it as the wedding was magical like a fairy tale with a great party. And also my dad was there being blessed and happy.
Now that some time passed by I look back on everything and I am grateful that all turned out as it did. And I can’t help myself to look this as a learning lesson in our lives. Surviving heart attack and having a wedding both seem like a new beginning. Not just for my dad or my brother and his wife, but for all of us as an individual and as a family.
Maybe is sounds dramatic, but we got a second chance to be even better family and to start to think about ourself what we need, what we want and how we will balance that with everything that world throws at us.
My inspiration for this post came today when I was driving home from work, stopping at my grandparents place and just when I left there was a song of Michael Jackson Heal the world. And one part of the lyrics opened my eyes. It goes like this Make A Little Space To Make A Better Place for you and for me.
Everybody knows that you need to put yourself in first place and this is a thin line between egoism and looking after yourself. And sometimes the fact that first you need to look after yourself becomes a handy excuse for being egoistic.
And I have listened to this song a million times before, but never got that the message Michael Jackson tried to share till today. The message is that in order to heal the world, first you need to make sure that your world is OK and when you are on the correct path you can help and support others and when you do you start living.
If You Want To Know Why
There’s A Love That
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
My message is that we need to overcome fear of any kind and overcome the fear of being close to each other in order to stop existing and start living.